Magnify The One Within...

I love to talk about God.
Whether there’s someone to talk to or not…I’d talk to myself any chance I get.
When you see me smiling to myself with tears in my eyes, I’m remembering how He found me…

Before now, life was routine. I was one of those who knew God, the way I knew how…
Also, I was one who couldn’t wrap my head around why someone would cry while praying to God or calling Jesus. And I didn’t understand why I should love God, even when I didn’t feel like it. Much more, believe that He's actually interested in all that concerns me. I just didn't get it. For me, it was… ‘I fear God…period!’

But one day, one night, one moment… He crept up on me. I like to describe it this way, ‘He stealthily took out my old heart and replaced it with a new one.’ See, this was a period in my life, when things had gotten somewhat stagnated; I had a pile of dreams I didn’t know how to achieve, I was in a relationship that was spiraling out of control, I was lost and didn’t even know it. I needed more...

So, day after day, I would pray flaccidly for God to fix these things, I thought I was 'lacking'. But He did more. He fixed me. And He went further to make this ‘one-time-shy-girl’ a woman so whole in Him, that now she cannot shut up. If you’d let me, I would talk about God to a wall. My love for Him now has grown even beyond my own comprehension.

I met with my friend for lunch yesterday. And each time I meet with her or we talk, I remember how we we got here. Growing up, we were different in every way, barely got along, it just felt like we were constantly shoved in the same direction, I didn't see why, she probably didn't... but somehow…years passed. You see, when God begins to do something in your life, He doesn’t necessarily explain why. When He starts to strategically put certain people in your life, at certain points in your life…you don’t understand until you start to see the beautiful side. He is the Force that brings it all into perspective.

For me, God knew that to run with my faith, I’d need to be surrounded by friends who are equally grounded in Him. So, now when I meet or talk with my friends, before we say ‘Jack Robinson’ (as my father would say) we are talking endlessly about God and how He constantly amazes us. Yesterday, Francesca asked me,"How did it all come together for you?" And I stared at her because I often ask myself the same question. So, I just said,"I don't know…I cannot describe it. It has grown beyond words. I just know this is where I belong."

I've learned that to give God absolute control, is to keep myself from losing my mind. He is willing to make every decision for us, every choice for us…even a choice as trivial as what I would wear each day; I’d give to Him ;-)

‘Greater Is He…That Is In Us...’